Monday, 30 April 2007

Well.... I am on a blitz of my written work this week.

I have loads to be done before Tuesday as every piece of work that has to be done has to be in by 4pm. The problem being i am working Tuesday and Wednesday in my department so it all has to be finished Monday night, so that leave me 6 days to get my head down.

Hopefully it will all be done and dusted!

I always say to myself i will start early next time so I'm not last minute but it never works out that way.

All i need is some motivation and then i will be sorted!!

Started working voluntary for the police today, was a great day and just them couple of hours really opened my eyes as to what they do. Totally knocked my stereotypical view out the window, and i think this will be really beneficial to my course, the criminological aspects.

been informed today by my boyfriend that on Saturday we are going to Wales camping, the usual place that we visit but its only for the night, to give me a break from my work. This will give me something to aim for, a kind of deadline for myself for a certain piece of work.

On a good note i did finish a 1000 word essay, about 10 small written assignments for my volunteering and an overall explanation of the charity. Which I'm very pleased with..

So 1 down........ 2 to go!!

P.s I have just started reading Harry Potter and i am addicted to it, i think its fab, why haven't i ever read any before???

Wednesday, 18 April 2007

Rest In Peace Adam

Tomorrow is my friends funeral he was killed in a roadside bomb in Iraq serving our country

He did not deserve to die, neither did those 4 other people

He will always be remembered for being such a brave lad who really touched the hearts of so many people, he was one of those people that you instantly liked as soon as you met him him. We have had some good laughs together, especially when we were younger and a bit mischievous drinking in the alley ways behind his house and running away from his mum. She never did spot the 20+ of us running down the street!!
Or the time he drew me a picture of the monsters he saw in his bedroom, when he was about 14!!

Its only now Adam that i watch the footage of our serving soldiers in Iraq that i realise just how brave you were, you will always be remembered... ALWAYS xx

Tomorrow the church will be packed just for you, so many people adored you, you were everyone's friend and we will all never forget you!!

Rest In Peace Adam, see you soon


A FRIEND
To you, my dearest family, Some things I'd like to say
But first of all to let you know, that I arrived okay
I'm writing this from Heaven,where I dwell with God above,
Where there's no more tears or sadness, there is just Eternal Love.

Please do not be unhappy,just because I'm out of sight
Remember that I'm with you,every morning, noon, or night
That day I had to leave you,when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me,and He said, I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,you were missed while you were gone
As for all your dearest family, they'll be here later on
I need you here so badly,as part of my big plan
There's so much that we have to do,to help our mortal man.

Then God gave me a list of things,He wished for me to do
And foremost on that list of mine,is to watch and care for you
And I will be beside you, every day, each week and year
And when you're sad, I'm standing thereto wipe away your tears.

And when you lie in bed at night,the day's chores out to flight
God and I are close to you in the middle of the night
When you think of my life on Earth,and all those living years
Because you're only human,they are bound to bring the tears.

But do not be afraid to cry,it does relieve the pain
Remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain
But one thing is for certain,though my life on Earth is over
I am closer to you now than I ever was before.

And to my very many friends, trust God He knows what's best

I'm still not far away from you, I'm just beyond the crest
There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb
But together we can do it,taking one step at a time.

It was always my philosophy,and I'd like it for you too
That as you give unto the world,so the world will give to you
If you can help somebody,who's in sorrow or in pain
Then you can say to God at night,my day was not in vain

And now I am contented ,that my life it was worthwhile
Knowing as I passed along the way,I made somebody smile
So if you meet somebody,who is down and feeling low
Just lend a hand to pick them up,as on your way you go.

When you are walking down the street,and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind
And when you feel a gentle breeze, or the wind upon your face
That's me giving you a great big hug, or just a soft embrace

And when it's time for you to go,from that body, to be free
Remember you're not going, You are coming here to me
And I will always love you,from that land way up above
We will be in touch again soon

Rest In Peace Adam... We all miss you!! xx

Monday, 16 April 2007

Been trying to get stuck into my essay today but to no avail - i feel lost!!

it started off great but its slowly died, i feel like i am rambling on about rubbish, its all bitty and it hasn't got a good structure.

I know the points i want to include but its how i go about it.

Today i am seriously doubting myself about whether i am cut out for academic work!!

Back to the writing!!

only 2207 words to go.....

Friday, 13 April 2007

Spent most of the day in Oxfam today, helping out, had a really good day as we were so busy. I was on my own for most of the day on the till, as the others were sorting stuff out. The takings were not small too, we took a lot of money whilst i was there as the shop is huge. I came out feeling very pleased with myself.

All the time i have been working there i didn't feel like i was working for a charity as i didn't see where the proceeds were going or even how much we were making. But now that i have i can work out what my time spent there is doing. And trust me it is a lot! I really feel like i am making a difference and its a great feeling!

Lately i have been having really bad nightmares, i am prone to them anyway but they are really disturbing and some of the stuff that are in them is making me feel horrible. I am constantly waking up during the night which then leaves me not having a restful sleep and i am shattered in the morning. Any advice on what to do? I have a box of Kalms but i am unsure whether they will help.

I have just heard on the radio that another UK Soldier has been killed in Afghanistan. They should all be brought home and soon. Luckily my other friend in the army is in Devon at the minute in the Marines base, so thank god it wont be another one of my friends. But who ever it is my heart truly goes out to you and your family and friends x

We have heard no news about my friend's funeral only that it will be in our local church which is tiny, considering how many people there will be there is no way it will fit everyone in. His mum went up to Kent to bring him home Thursday, so he should be home pretty soon. Everyone is shocked and truly gutted at the loss we all have now in our hearts, now he is gone.

On a much lighter note i am reading The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe and its great a real easy read and i cant believe i have not read it any sooner. Thank to my friend Rosie who suggested it, cant wait to get stuck in again later.

Considering its Friday the 13th, i have had quite a good day!!

Wednesday, 11 April 2007

Wednesday, i have always liked Wednesdays its that feeling of being half way through the week and having the weekend to look forward too.

I have been having a lot of problems with my legs and i got them looked at today, its my knee apparently, its seizing up when i rest it, its putting pressure on the rest of my leg making my muscle spasms therefore i cant walk properly. I don't half get some health complaints. I have medication so hopefully it will ease off.

I am battling my way through 3 assignments

1. 3000 words - On the police force
2. 3000 words - On psychological aspects of youth offending
3. 1000 words - On my voluntary placement in Oxfam

and so far i have done 800 words on essay number 2, i just haven't got the motivation to get going. I really enjoy my subjects its just when i get down to the writing it just doesn't happen.

Spent the day doing errands for my nan, was nice to spend some time with her as she has been on holiday.

My Friend who died gets brought home tomorrow so i am wondering if the funeral will take place next week. It still feels a bit surreal but i think i am accepting it more now.

Saturday, 7 April 2007

Sad News

I had the sad news yesterday that a friend of mine had died.

He was one of the 4 British soldiers to be killed in a roadside bomb in Basra in Iraq.

I am in so much shock i cannot believe it!

He was always full of life, smiling and always happy and friendly with whoever he met on his travels. The army was a move he couldn't wait for, it made him do something with his life.

Now he is gone and i just don't know what to say. If someone mentions his name i cry i cannot help it. His face is plastered all over the front pages of the newspapers, it hurts!

I will have to go see his mum and brother but i just don't know what to say?

For me, he will live forever!!!

Rest in Peace Adam, love ya xxx

Monday, 2 April 2007

Charity

Well I'm sore!!

Yesterday me and my mum done a 10mile charity walk for Marie Curie Cancer Care www.mariecurie.org.uk/ we raised about £200 between us which is fab. The walk was quite challenging but we made it and so much fun.

Because this charity is very close to my heart i am always looking for events to do which i can raise lots of money for. I am currently raising money for The Hydro-Active Women's Challenge that i will be doing in September its a 5k run and to honest I'm not the fittest person so it will be a huge challenge for me.
please check out my sponsor page www.justgiving.com/Emma5k and dig deep and help me raise money for this wonderful charity.

£20 will help provide a Marie Curie nurse for some one with a terminal illness in their own homes the service is always free to the patient and the carer
I am hoping to do more than that i want to provide numerous amounts of hours so that everyone who sadly has cancer can be looked after with the utmost care and their families can have the support they need at this sad time in both their lives.

Please sponsor me and help make a difference

Thank you
Emma x

My 5k Run For Marie Curie